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editing friends.... @ 11:54 pm

If I've taken you off, it is from not having much time not from some sudden livejournal drama.

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March 1st, 2004

Self InjuryAwareness Day.... @ 06:06 pm

Current Mood: infuriated infuriated
Current Music: data swirling away forever

...is today.

And I had a fairly well written post about it too. Which iJournal has now eaten. Using cuts seems to encourage this newfound entry eating tendency. So no cuts for now. Besides, this is important and you should read it.

Suggestions for new journal clients will be welcomed.

Fortunately, fox1013 has a even more damn impressive post, which frankly, mine mostly just linked to and commented on.

Here it is - if the fucking journal client won't eat it this time

the url - http://www.livejournal.com/users/fox1013/525139.html

the cut and paste -

Monday, March 1, 2004 is Self Injury Awareness Day.

It's not the first one. It's been going on for a few years.

But I've never seen it really acknowledged. No one ever seems to want to own up.

It's kind of the red-headed stepchild of disorders, really. Most people don't want to own up to their own self-injuring, if they do so, and most people are a lot happier believing their friends don't hurt themselves.

Well, guess what? It's not that safe. It's not that easy. Statistics for self-injury have been steadily rising. We're up to between half a percent and one percent of people hurting themselves, and at this point, no one can afford to make the assumption that it couldn't happen to them.

What is self injury? Self-injury is the active choice to physically harm oneself, without intent of suicide. Self-injury is the act of cutting, hitting, punching, stabbing, biting, poking. It's the act of pulling out hair or nails, of sometimes even removing a limb.

Self-injury is a coping mechanism. The short answer is that it's a way to make the internal pain into external pain. The short answer doesn't even begin to cover it. But it's not a cry for help, and it's not a sign that the person is crazy. It's just a coping mechanism.

People bleed profusely from this. People go to the hospital from this. People permanently scar from this. And sometimes they don't. Sometimes, they just scratch themselves repeatedly, or pick at themselves until they bleed. And sometimes that's scarier.

A hell of a lot more of us just hurt ourselves in little ways. Just a little every day. Just enough to make it last. Just enough to be real. And maybe so little that it's not even self-considered self-injury. Maybe it's just this thing, this coping mechanism.

And without open discussion? It'll never be dealt with.

And it'll escalate.

You think I'm kidding? Go read the literature.

Actually, read the literature anyway. Because, some of the things I've read? Have given me nightmares.

If you don't find some of the stories terrifying, if you don't find this to be cause for activism, I don't know what could convince you.

Because the fact of the matter is, the world isn't safe, and the world isn't easy. People hurt themselves. People almost kill themselves. And you know what causes a hell of a lot of the severity of self-injury?


How scary is it for your only knowledge of self-injury to come from a "Seventh Heaven" episode where they send the kid away? Or maybe "Secret Cutting," on Lifetime, where the mother ends up leaving the family? How is that going to make you go to a doctor and try to get help?

Fuck, no. It's time to stand up for this. It's time to to make self-injury a matter of public awareness.

Because that's the only way to stop what is rapidly becoming an epidemic.

If you're intelligent? If you're female? If you're fifteen to twenty four? You fall into the high risk category. If you don't, one of your siblings or your cousins or your friends does. I can almost promise you that.

If you're on my friends list, you know someone who hurts themselves.

If you aren't, but you're reading this entry? This is me, at summer camp in 2001. This is my arm, three weeks ago.

If you didn't know someone who cut themselves before?

Now you do.

I'd like to encourage people to link to this, or even repost this, across LJ and the rest of the internet over the next week or so. I don't have a lot of times when I want to be the person to make a difference. Generally, I leave that to other people, who are smarter or friendlier or more popular or more active than me.

But that's what I say every year. It's not enough to just allow for that anymore. I'm throwing myself out there, right the fuck now.

I cut myself. I have friends who cut themselves. I'm tired of the ignorance, I'm tired of the apathy, I'm tired of the shame. I want to make things better for people. And if this is how I can do that, then I'm willing to put myself out there and get it done.

ETA- if you're linking/copying, and you'd let me know, that'd be nifty, just so I know how it's spreading. Thankses.

*hugs the internet*

Edit the second - I'm screening non-friends comments now. On principle, I'm more than welcome to flames. In practice, some of the flames have fallen into the category of "triggery to some" and I'm deleting those and not accepting some of the others.

I promise you'll still be insulting me, and I'll be plenty offended, if that'll make you happy, but I really don't want this post to be a trigger for anyone. Sorry.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Garbage - Medication
680 Flying Monkeys || Fly, my pretties!

And I had some other links I thought were relevant but I'll try to put them up later.


February 23rd, 2004

(no subject) @ 12:45 am

Current Mood: shocked shocked, shocked I tell you
Current Music: Violent Femmes - Gimme the Car

It is so beautiful, I don't have words


Thousands of formerly ardent Christians filed for divorce this morning, as others raped their children and household pets, after the Massachusetts Supreme Judicial Court ruled that gay people are citizens too.

"My marriage is over," spoke one upset Christian as he dry-humped the fender of a parked car. "My marriage isn't worth anything," he insisted. "I feel no connection to my wife and children and I just want to do whatever I please, when it pleases me to do it." With that he turned to a passing elderly woman and shouted for her to reveal her "tits."

This same scene is being repeated over and over again, on every street in every city and town in America. Once devoted parents and spouses, America's Christians are denouncing any bonds between themselves and their families as they embark on a binge of sex, drugs and socialism.

"We warned you that this would happen," insisted one anti-human rights activist. "We told you that gay citizens enjoying equal rights would destroy marriage, the family and even Christianity itself. And now it's happened," he said. "You should have listened to us. If you had, I wouldn't of had to have sex with three different strange men in a public restroom this morning."

The fallout from today's decision is enormous and far reaching. So big is the change that swept America this morning that it may be days before a true accounting of the damage is complete. As things stand, one unconfirmed report has Bob Jones Jr., of Bob Jones University, defecating on his bible upon hearing the news, while other witnesses have come forward to report that they had seen Pat Robertson, former leader of the Christian Coalition and the host of the 700 club, enjoying sex with a chair.

Congress was quick to pass an appropriations bill funding the thousands of new orphanages needed to care for the abandoned children. It is hoped that this is only a temporary measure and that Christians will yet accept the financial responsibility for their families, even if they no longer love them and insist on masturbating in public.

February 20th, 2004

I laughed so hard I really DID scare the cat! @ 08:44 pm

Current Mood: weird weird
Current Music: the music from the animation of course!

The ultimimate ad for psychopharmaceuticals.


Crossposted all over the place as soon as I get around to it.


In a fit of random enthusasum, I have founded a lj community - miserableovids - come join the um, fun? un-fun?

be afraid..... be very afraid...... @ 07:15 pm


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